"I was given homework to spit in the street, curse on the road, or tell myself I was a man dozens of times a day in order to develop a masculine and tough self-image. In reality, my sexual attraction didn't change, but I pretended to be making progress in the process."

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"He asked me to watch a pornographic film, which only had women in it, and he wanted to know if it changed anything, if it strengthened my masculinity."

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"I had exercises to do. I had to put a rubber band on my hand and every time I thought about girls I would pull to hurt myself. At a certain point it didn't hurt anymore. I would punish myself – if I thought about someone I would starve myself."

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