I did my best, I invested thousands of shekels and good years of my life

The conversion brought me to the lowest point of my life, and I was ready to give up my soul

I went to a clinical psychologist who asked me to sit in front of the mirror every day for long minutes and say that I was a pervert and that my sexual orientation was disgusting, forbidden and evil, while telling me to watch pornographic websites

The therapist emphasized several times that only he knew what the problem was and only he could solve it. I trusted him I was angry with my father for many imaginary things. I looked for reasons to fight because the therapist said and the therapist was right. This led to arguments, tension and anger. I blamed him

He straight up emphasized, 'This is not conversion therapy,' but he wants to change my sexual orientation

The thing I wanted most in the world was to be straight. It doesn't work. It only does harm

I was told by the therapist that I was surrounded by female characters, my mother and sisters, and therefore I was not allowed to talk to them and spend as much time as possible with male characters in order to understand what it means to be a man. I didn't talk to my mother and sisters for 3 years because of this