I did my best, I invested thousands of shekels and good years of my life

The conversion brought me to the lowest point of my life, and I was ready to give up my soul

I went to a clinical psychologist who asked me to sit in front of the mirror every day for long minutes and say that I was a pervert and that my sexual orientation was disgusting, forbidden and evil, while telling me to watch pornographic websites

One morning I look at myself in the mirror and I see a figure that is a shadow of what I used to be

The therapist emphasized several times that only he knew what the problem was and only he could solve it. I trusted him I was angry with my father for many imaginary things. I looked for reasons to fight because the therapist said and the therapist was right. This led to arguments, tension and anger. I blamed him

He straight up emphasized, 'This is not conversion therapy,' but he wants to change my sexual orientation

The thing I wanted most in the world was to be straight. It doesn't work. It only does harm

I was told by the therapist that I was surrounded by female characters, my mother and sisters, and therefore I was not allowed to talk to them and spend as much time as possible with male characters in order to understand what it means to be a man. I didn't talk to my mother and sisters for 3 years because of this